jag kan inte sitta och älta längre. ja, saker och ting suger för tillfället. som till exempel att

- jag har 31 dagar kvar i new york

- att min ena bästa vän återvänder till tyskland och min andra bästa vän stanna här medan jag flyttar till västkusten

- att killen som får det att kittla i magen är här och jag flyttar till västkusten. 

men helt åt helvete är det ju inte. jag vet att västkusten kommer vara ett äventyr i sig och att jag kommer träffa underbara människor och att jag kommer ha ett asbra år. jag bara vet det! jag visste att jag skulle ha det här i NYC så varför skulle LA göra mig besviken? jag menar.. ingen stad i världen kommer någonsin äga mitt hjärta så som NYC gör men jag tror att vi kommer gå bra ihop, LA och jag.

igår kväll kunde jag inte sluta gråta. gråta över allt jag kommer sakna och allt som jag måste säga hejdå till. men faktum är att jag inte vill gråta. jag vill vara glad över allt det underbara jag har fått uppleva och alla de underbara som jag har fått träffa och som jag har haft ett underbart år med. alla minnen vi har skapat tillsammans, som jag kommer bära med mig livet ut.

as long as you love me, we can be starving, we can be homeless, we can be broke. as long as you love me, I'll be your platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold. ♥

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I can't dwell about it anymore. yes, things are kinda sucky at the moment.. like the facts that

- I have 31 days left in new york

- one of my best friends is going back to germany and my other best friend is staying here while I move to the west coast

- the guy who gives me butterflies is here and I'm moving to the west coast. 

but it's not all shitty though. I know that the west coast will be awesome and that I will have an awesome time there. I will meet great people and have the time of my life. I knew I would have it here in new york too, and I did! of course there's no other city in the world that will own my heart in the same way that NYC does but I'm sure we'll have fun together, LA and I. 

last night I couldn't stop crying. crying over all the things I'll miss and all the goodbyes I have to deal with. but honestly, I don't wanna cry. I wanna be happy about all the amazing stuff and all the amazing people I've met. all our memories that I will have with me for the rest of my life! 

as long as you love me, we can be starving, we can be homeless, we can be broke. as long as you love me, I'll be your platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold. ♥

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