redan onsdag idag. dagarna flyger förbi. new york kokar just nu fast himlen är alldeles svart och jag gissar att regnet och stormen kommer när som helst. jag vill ut och dansa i regnet!

jag känner mig precis som ett new york oväder inombords just nu. har så mycket blandade känslor. så mycket upp och ner. jag känner mig inte färdig med new york men samtidigt är jag så otroligt taggad för LA. har fortfarande inte börjat packa. inte ens börjat reda ut vad som ska skickas hem/slängas/packas. 

igår försökte jag ringa angående mitt flyg men gick inget vettigt svar. förhoppningsvis får jag någon klarhet snart. jag borde haft mitt flyg för typ en månad sen men.. jag har skjutit på det så länge. inte riktigt velat ta tag i det  - inte riktigt velat inse att det flyget innebär slutet för mig och new york. i alla fall för 2012. 

hur som helst.. snart är det helg igen! på lördag ska jag spendera hela dagen i NYC och sen på kvällen ska jag ha min första hejdå-middag ute i huntington med mina finaste klasskamrater. jag gissar på att jag kommer gråta x antal tårar den kvällen. men.. det som inte dödar härdar, sägs det i alla fall.

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already wednesday. can't believe how fast the days are going. new york is so freaking hot right now but for some reason the sky just turned black. I'm guessing that the rain and the storm will come anytime soon. I wanna dance in the rain!

I feel just like a new york storm inside right now. I have so many mixed emotions. so many ups and downs. I don't feel like I'm done with new york but at the same time I am so excited for LA. I still didn't start my packing. didn't even start deciding what to pack/send home/throw away. 

yesterday I tried to call and get some information about my flight from new york to LA but didn't get much wiser. I didn't even wanna make the call. I'm still trying to pause the moment and stay here as long as I can. getting the ticket means that I'm breaking up with new york.. at least for 2012. 

anyhow.. the weekend is just around the corner. saturday I will spend the whole day in the city and in the night I am having my first goodbye dinner in huntington with my amazing actors. I'm guessing I'm gonna cry x amount of tears that night. but what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.. at least that's what they say!

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