it's hard - being without him. and every day I try to see- not as another day without him, but as a day closer to seeing him again. and july 30th I'll finally get to be with him again. I can't wait for him to get over here. I can't wait to drive to the airport to pick him up. I can't wait for him to see sweden. by now I've pretty much seen all of his places back in cali. I've seen where he grew up and what schools he went to and where he played as a kid and stuff like that. his memories that he so beautifully shared with me. I can't wait to share my memories with him. to show him where I went to school and college and where I used to work and where me and my friends would meet for coffee and girltalk. I can't wait to make new memories with him. 

I've almost been home for a month now. a month without him. and it hasn't been an easy one. it's acutally been one of the hardest months I've ever had. but with skype we at least manage to fall asleep 'with each other'. just a simple thing like going to bed without him is just breaking my heart. but we are dealing with it in the best way we can. 

54 more days. 54, that's all. that's all I need to get through until he is here. 54 days until I get to hold his hand again and see him smile and hear him laugh and kiss his lips and his neck and fall asleep in his arms. 54.. 

and the summer with him is going to be amazing. not only will he see all my favorite places here but we are planning a roadtrip towards the end of his stay. he needs to see stockholm. he needs to see the beauty that sweden has to offer. and except for the roadtrip we are attending a wedding. one of my closest friends is getting married to the love of her life. and I get to attend the wedding - with the love of my life. I get to hold his hand and be proud to have him there with me. god, I'm so excited! and happy and in love! 54 days without him is nothing compared to a whole life with him. ♥